New Year, New...Everything

Happy 2018!
Hope everyone's had (having) a good holiday. 

Spent time with loved ones.

Ate too much food.

Opened some presents.

As we enter a new year, it's a new page, a new beginning, a fresh take on the world. I've been looking back and a lot of 2017 was pretty negative for me, I was dealing with a lot of personal stuff, and my mental health took a pretty bad turn. But I made it, barely, and there were points I was ready to quit, days, weeks even where I just didn't see the point. 

As a mom this scared me into getting some help and I've been seeing a counsellor, who has actually proven pretty useful to my thinking process and general outlook on things. 

But the point of this post isn't to get caught up in the negativity of last year, it's to look forward to the new year and make a plan. 

I don't usually make resolutions, as let's be honest no one actually sticks to them, and I'm still not making them now. This is more a list of goals. (I know they're basically the same thing, but not to me) 

1. I want to post here more often. Make this blog a thing I do regularly and not just when the world feels like it's falling apart.
2. Focus more on me. I usually get so wrapped up in what everyone else needs I often forget about myself, this needs to stop. I'm not going to stop taking care of BAM and those around me, but I'm going to carve out a little more time for me.
3. Self Care. This is a big one for me. Self care is something I often struggle with, when my mental health isn't great. Things as simple as brushing my hair can often be forgotten, because I just can't be bothered. This year I hope to make an attempt at least, to change this, and focus on the seemingly little things.
4. Let things go. This is another big one and something that comes up in counselling A LOT. I often get stuck in my head dwelling on things and people that have wronged me in the past, I'm already working on this. I need to let go and move on. What's in past is past and there's nothing I can do to change it.  

That's really all I've got for now. 

So you'll be seeing a lot more of me around here (hopefully) and the posts will be a little more lighthearted (most of the time). 

So until next time...

xoxo